My Corner of Solemnity

Well it was the semis of balagtasan today…all was great but I felt bad about my inspiration…I got hurt real bad when I knew about something you don’t wanna mess with… well I thought of not thinking about her and did the balagtasan without any inspiration or burning passion within me I just did it…

To my thanks we did win…but I was more useless than the last time… My teacher shoved in front of my face that I sucked bad and this must be fixed before we go to the finals… and I thought maybe I really do need her… but… I have no such chance she doesn’t even know I like her!!! for you see I’m the silent one…I’m not the aggresive type I either wait for the right time or never talk at all…

God I need her… but if she doesn’t like me… ok I’ll accept it who would like me anyway? (ahem~) umm as I daid I’ll accept it for what is best for her is also best for me ^_^ but I don’t realy need her hand I just need her friendship…because without her I’m…done…

you know what this thing looks short this is one of my problems I always write short!!! I realy should emphasize my writing skills because if I live life like this forever nothing gonna happen good for me!!!! umm what topic errr….bah I just need her…but again let’s point out the negative side

1.I don’ have the look
2.I don’t have the personality
3.and for god sake I don’t even have the money
4.I suck
5.umm I don’t wanna continue anymore because I’ll just hate myself…

how about the positive sides…

1.I can give her true love which is not a thing of girls this days -_-

well I guess that is all is it longer now?

Our Balagtasan came and as always. I was realy nervous… Good thing my group trained me and looked at me as if I am good at this things. For you see I’m mainly shy,dumb,and kinda not so popular in my classroom but good thing I got in the right group! my best friends group! And so I memorized hard did my actions and did well in my practices I had faith in myself ^_^

Finally the day of the Balagtasan arrives. Little by little my group is getting near on being called… and then we were called. For some instant reason I forgot my lines, my heart beated so fast that I thought I was gonna die… but good thing somebody said to me "You can do it Jerome! You can do it!" and by that one moment I got inspired it was my very own crush that was telling me that I can do it. And so I remembered my lines, I had faith 2x more for myself, and I did well doing my facial expressions because of her…

AND BECAUSE OF HER!!! I AM HERE… IN THE SEMI-FINALS!!! Too bad this her doesn’t know I like her…