My Corner of Solemnity

Damn this life… Damn my personality… Damn my style of living… Why did I have to grow up like this? Why are the 1st impressions about me seem to be always the same? like a pervert, a nut, a stupid kid? God darn it… Why am I pessimistic and optimistic at the same time? Why is it always like this?

I have always been looking at the positive sides but due to some movie and the people around me… It made me think… I think I need a girl… I know it’s crap and shit and all but… bah what am I talking about?! I don’t need no girl I can be happy myself… OK… this is bullshit…

You see all my life I rarely go with girls. as in talk and stuff like that because I know I don’t want to talk to them and stuff because our minds are different and I’m known as a damn SPED… and of course… a PERVERT… bullshit… but for some reason I thirst for it… all my life… I’ve talked to boys, had fun with boys that have not much damn popularity on girls or don’t have that thing that girls want… whatever it is I don’t know.

well I do have girls as friends but I rarely talk to them because I’m still shy as it is… but what if I get myself a girlfriend… wait no that’s stupid… damn it… I need my brain fixed I think I’ll go down to step 1 again… a loner…

Ah… Huwag niyo na pansinin yung title tinatamad na kasi ako gumawa ng maayos na title e… at naisip ko bakit pa ako gagawa ng title na maayos? e wala naman nagbabasa e diba? masasayang lang yung utak ko…

Anyways ano kayang magandang pagusapan… Alam ko na yung nangyari sa akin kahapon! well kami ng mga kaibigan ko mainly Jay-r, Deejay, Aljon and Thomas (Huwag ka na William!!!) ay pumunta sa cafe… well unexpected to para sa akin kasi plano ko sana mag mcdo kasama si William… well una plano ko laro sa cafe for an hour pero… tulad nga ng sinabi kong unexpected 10 hours pla ako maglalaro!!! 10 am after exams until 8:xx pm!!! like oh my god diba!!! at ang dala dala ko lng nung araw na yun ay 200… buti na lang may sukleng 50 Wakekekeke. anyways storya dun… nagusap kami ni william sabay ayaw niya na daw mag mcdo and blah maya maya nakita ko sina dj at jr sumunod na lng sa kanila upang maglaro ng isang oras sa cafe, pero plano pla ni jr at dj na 10 hours!!! syempre ako angulat at ayaw ko sabi ko 1 hour lng ako. so habang naglalaro o bago maglaro umalis kagad si william… AMF TAKOT SA MAGULANG!!! tapos maya maya umalis si thomas tinamad sa pag ro si dj umalis dahil tinamad din kami na lng ni jr natira and out of my suprise naka 10 hours kami pero ok lang masaya naman e napa 21 ko yung gunz ko yipee!!! kaso kapalit pulang mata super big eye bagzzzz kita kits na lang sa school wahehehehe at ano pa ubos allowance at sobrang gutom pagkatapos maglaro nakain ko lang burger… isang pirasong burger at wala palang luto sa bahay… todo gutom ako nung araw na yun…pero ok lang nga pla kami ni jr ay takot na takot nung gabi dahil baka may magnanakaw at nagiisip kami na may multo (multo no!!! wakekekeke) at yung lang…

hmm saka na lang yung sa minamahal kong babae basta sasabihin ko lang wala na akong minamahal…well wala na…sa susunod na chapter na lang yun sensya na kung mahaba at taglish na hawaan na ako ng mga joloks kong kaklase e wakekekekeke joke lang po mga kaklase ko alam niyo naman na love ko kayo e diba? wag niyo ko patayin ha peace tayo! HALA TAKBO NA!!!

I’m tired about stuff and so I thought of making a story… Well not realy a story but ahem let’s just proceed… I’ve heard from a friend that I think like a kid, If she doesn’t know.. I am a kid!  Actually I’m an adolescent, BUT adolescents are HALF kids… And so if they tell me I think like a kid ok good but I’m not like them that is too serious… I want to live life with no problems than look at it as a bad gift given to me by god. even though I say negative things about myself and stuff it’s just a joke for me. and oh yeah don’t you know grown ups are more sinful than kids… because those little ones don’t know what their doing and think that life is indeed great… it’s one of my Principles in life Live it Happily like a kid but I’m not telling that go kid all the way. If you guys don’t notice too. I’m serious at times. It’s just rarely seen. When needed I’ll use it, but sometimes it’s scared to come out because I’m shy. even though I say shit and crap about things. Yes! I am shy even though I say why is your ***** big? Yes! I’m shy! god I’m weird… but I tell you I’m an adolescent that’s why I act like a kid…

I guess that’s all now I’m gonna make another story later on by tomorrow…