My Corner of Solemnity

Damn this life… Damn my personality… Damn my style of living… Why did I have to grow up like this? Why are the 1st impressions about me seem to be always the same? like a pervert, a nut, a stupid kid? God darn it… Why am I pessimistic and optimistic at the same time? Why is it always like this?

I have always been looking at the positive sides but due to some movie and the people around me… It made me think… I think I need a girl… I know it’s crap and shit and all but… bah what am I talking about?! I don’t need no girl I can be happy myself… OK… this is bullshit…

You see all my life I rarely go with girls. as in talk and stuff like that because I know I don’t want to talk to them and stuff because our minds are different and I’m known as a damn SPED… and of course… a PERVERT… bullshit… but for some reason I thirst for it… all my life… I’ve talked to boys, had fun with boys that have not much damn popularity on girls or don’t have that thing that girls want… whatever it is I don’t know.

well I do have girls as friends but I rarely talk to them because I’m still shy as it is… but what if I get myself a girlfriend… wait no that’s stupid… damn it… I need my brain fixed I think I’ll go down to step 1 again… a loner…

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